yea, back again after such a loooonnnngggg time of not blogging....since i would most often blog at amz blog....my eyes are lk so swollen can, after i cried for so long thinking about the consequences i would haf to face on tuesday when sch reopens and my econs tcher will be lk so angry and disappointed in me for 'deceiving' her that my dad will be coming to meet her....hai...i really didn't lie, i swear~~it's my dad who refuse to turn back to see my econs tcher having met my civic tutor....haiz, now super low=( just feel so remorsed over this matter and i will prove that i will improve econs for promos so as not to disappoint her and myself....i will JIAYOU de....these few days feel lk i am on a brim of breaking down coz i really feel that i am so stressed out ok? then everytime i just haf to put up a bravefront to continue working even harder to handle all these stressful stuff despite feeling so exhausted and listless....hai, how i wish i can return to the time when i was still a child, oblivious to the surroundings and carefree....just feel that i am too pressurised by school's work, guitar and myself bahz...but i guess that's what jc life is all about, all work but no(minimal) play(sleep)....ah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i just want to find a way to let it out.... maybe ask seehui, minsi and huichan to accompany me go relieve stress tml....hope i can revert to my best shape on tuesday to fight it out with all those burdening work....
these few days i am stuck with my pw grp after sch to finish WR and i still haven do my EOM lo, so sad and i just feel so stressed!!! i wan to remove myself from this reality and reach a destination where i can find my true self....i miss amz, i miss freedom and relaxation...=D
