agrrr. FOCUS FOCUS! there are still lots and lots of impt stuff to handle on hand.
用忙碌来麻痹自己吧！答应自己，我会好好过！:)

tired. think tonight will be the earliest night i am sleeping ever since hols started.
thanks mr headache for visiting me at such a "right" time.
nites!

i am feeling tired. with lots of mixed feelings and i feel weird.
but i do not know how to go about describing how i am actually feeling. agrrr. that's like the worst thing of all.
and this stupid emo thing is coming back again. :(

不懂是从几时开始，我渐渐忘了放开怀地笑的感觉是什么了。
那个了解自己心里在想什么，要什么的我，好像突然迷失了方向。
我真的不知道自己在想什么啦！
只有一个字可以形容：烦！

finally, i have got the time to bake today!
and i realise baking is one way that can take my mind off thinking abt all the unnecessary stuff:)
bcoz i believe that whatever feelings u put into baking, the person eating it will actually be able to tell what the baker's feelings are when he/she tastes the end-pdt!
perhaps i should just bake whenever i think i am going to break down or whenever i need a break instead of going mia or going to the beach. :P

and the song 阿蠢 is stuck in my head!
nice song with super emo lyrics. :(

阿蠢 - 石欣卉
他什么样的轮廓把你从我身边给骗走
他什么样的温柔把你从我身边给拐走
他什么样的笑容把你从我身边给调走
他什么样的做作让你最后理会我哽咽的嘶吼
碎裂的承诺失去栖身之所
被留下的我不想走
tell me why tell me why
我还在原地寂寞的徘徊我的爱
我的等待 垮成了一地错过的无奈
tell me why tell me why
我祈祷昏迷的我快醒来我的爱
就让它留在未来 别让它变苍白
是什么样的依赖让我忘了你不可信赖
是什么样的障碍让我忘了该置身事外
是什么样的病态让我忘了你不能崇拜
是什么样的实在让我忘了要对自尊有个交代
手一方开爱跑到千里之外想赎爱得飘洋过海
tell me why tell me why
我还在原地寂寞的徘徊我的爱
我的等待 垮成了一地错过的无奈
tell me why tell me why
我祈祷昏迷的我快醒来我的爱
就让它留在未来 别让它变苍白
那个八成是我 八成是我 被虚纵过火
噌经爱过快被风化成残波
让爱想起什么 我大声喊奏 心跳撑着我
不愿坠落捍卫快乐的我 在天国复活
tell me why tell me why
我还在原地寂寞的徘徊我的爱
我的等待 垮成了一地错过的无奈
tell me why tell me why
我祈祷昏迷的我快醒来我的爱
(错过的都不存在 我还有好多的疼爱)

nice sweet song. :) please be careful with my heart!

and i have added on new places to my "TO GO" list.

1) Bottle tree park 2) Railway track near Kranji MRT

elaine wants to go on a runaway.
sometimes it's the weaker side of me that dominates. which explains for me wanting to escape from the reality.
can i just MIA and be out of contact from everyone?
i hate this feeling of being a weakling. :(

can't believe internship can be this tiring. especially when u have to face the comp for a total of 8hrs a day except for the 1hr lunch break.
but thankfully i have my radio and my sweets to accompany me and to help me stay awake while at work.
and that reminds me that i will have to stock up my sweets supplies over the weekends again:)

and i found my next destination...A PINCH OF SALT:)
shall find a day to explore this cute restaurant.
http://www.withapinchofsalt.com.sg/

singapore is sooo small but there are still many places that i have not heard or been to before!
i wanna go explore such places whenever i am free.
hu wants to go pulau ubin with meee? can't believe that i have never been there before during the past 20+ years! :X

anyway, i need to get started with my bdae prep soon. if not i can forsee myself not sleeping well for the week before my bdae. time to make a trip down to bras besah for the materials:) after that it's dinner with the tut grp. and they wanna try exotic food at arab street tmr, what a weird suggestion.

2 more days to the much awaited weekends.



从小到大，妈妈都说吃东西不可以偏食，要不然会没有营养，长大后会挑食。
可是长大后，慢慢了解到在爱情里偏食不一定不是一件好事。
因为偏食可以说是对一段感情的执著吧！:)

suddenly recalled of wat we talked about on thursday. the typical type of htht that gals like to talk abt:) wat's ur ideal bf, wat age will u start worrying if u remained single. hahah. i think all these have always been gals' fav topics for htht!

but i feel that at the end of the day, the guy u meet won't necessarily fulfill all or maybe any of the criteria coz it's the heart that matters most:) so follow ur heart and not let the right person slip by ur side!

i am feeling super shagged coz of period cramps instead of work today! agrrr.
no ice-cream and cold stuff for these few days coz the pain is simply unbearable.
i think my whole face was very pale today but thankfully nobody saw it! :P
moral of the story is to bring the panadols everyday in case u need it and u dun have it. :X

tmr is FRIDAY!:)

it's mid week! FINALLY!:)
2 more days before the long-awaited weekends.
JIAYOU JIAYOU JIAYOU to myself and all my friends be it, those doing attachment, internship, working or serving the nation! push on for 2 more days and we can take a little breather!

as the going gets tough, the tough gets going! so elaine, hold back ur tears and keep fighting on!:)

婚姻不是儿戏，更不是约束。
当初因为爱对方而承诺要一起白头偕老，一起共度下半辈子。
现在却因为爱情变淡，不信任对方，而视这段婚姻为一种束缚。
从认识到追求到恋爱，结婚，争吵，冷战到最后以离婚收场。
在你们之间，我看见了一段可悲与不幸福的爱情。
你们都没有错，也许你们从来都不是那个彼此在寻找的对的人吧！

at least i survived today.
not as enjoyable as i expected i guess, which most probably is due to the people there. *sigh*
a new environment, a new bunch of seniors, and a new work experience. :(
i guess it takes time to get people to open up and for me to open up. agrrr. dun like this process of getting to know new people all over again! this is like the second orientation in this month!

i really miss the company of my friends when i am at work!:) people hu can make me talk non-stop and make me feel comfortable and at ease when i am with them! :)

finally i am getting stuff done! kinda settled my bdae invitation so what's left is the catering, bdae cake, deco and door gifts. i am kinda looking forward to making the door gifts coz i love doing these stuff. HAHA:)

as for internship, i need to learn the dance steps for 2dances. ao i better get started tmr, if not i think i will go crazy by next sat's practice. JIAYOU elaine! i know dance is not ur cup of tea, but u will master it someday! :)

going for fieldwork tmr! hope it's fun and the seniors are nice. coz i will be tgt with them for like 3weeks? and i hope there's no OT next week which i kinda doubt so.

always look on the bright side of life! :) another week of heels, formal wear and contact lens!

haix. feeling kinda disappointed and a little pissed off! coz when i was on my way home from parkway, the bus i took was really crowded but i was lucky to have gotten a seat. afterwhich, 2 elderly auntie actually came to stand beside me, so i gave up my seat to one of them. and to my surprise none of the other commuters around me actually gave up theirs to the other auntie. and the poor auntie had to stand all the way from parkway to eunos. just dun understand why cant the rest be more compassionate to the elderly?! will they want their parents to be treated this way too? *tsk tsk tsk* 气死我了！

my eyelids are like drooping as the week progresses.

especially with the amount of e-learning i need to complete by this week. *sigh*

after 3days of intern, i realise that s'porean guys are getting less and less gentleman! agrr.. wat is happening man!?

and sometimes, i feel that our interns are quite dao, even worst than the perm staff there. at least when i meet the perm staff, they smile at u when u smile at them.

can anyone tell me wat is happening to our generation?! seriously, i dun uds.

life is already hard, and meeting those ppl at work everyday just never fails to make my life even harder. :X

i just want to enjoy being myself. :)

i survived the first day of internship! whee! =)
but sometimes, today being the first day, there's bound to be the usual orientation-like stuff:(
making new friends, adapting to a new environment, trying to open up to new people. *sighs*
hmm..but i promise i will try to open up.
but at the end of all these, i just hope to find a few nice buddies whom i can crap, and enjoy working with during this 10wks of internship!
and i hope my mentor and supervisor are nice ppl! *prays*
sometimes it's just that our frequencies don't click, which explains for my silence.
and i dun like to talk to people who are faking to be friendly with me. that method doesn't work for me.

tmr will be a better day! coz at least i have somewhere to go after intern:)
and i will need to learn to drink someday coz it's time to grow up!:) *random* but i am serious!

有些不开心到了适当的时候就应该放下。
太执着只会让自己更痛苦。毕竟人应该乐观一点，开心一点！
好好珍惜自己身边的人吧！不要等到失去了才后悔。
如果关心一个人就应该让他知道。
如果爱一个人就该大声地告诉他。
生命是如此的短暂，我们都应该珍惜每一分，每一秒，每一个自己在乎的人:)
为了你，我会走出来的！

今天，我真的好累好累哦！第一次发现，强颜欢笑也可以这么的累。
因为不想多说，所以选择了保持沉默。
因为不想让人担心，所以选择了一个人面对。
生命是那么的脆弱，那么的不堪一击。
原本想在今天和他们一起庆祝母亲节的，可是现在看似我迟了一步。
原本还想在明天买材料做一份结婚纪念日的礼物送给他们的。可是一切都好像太迟了。
才几个月不见，我真的真的很难接受他已经不在的事实。
对我而言，他就像是我的第二个外公吧！
和他相处已经快一年多了，每个礼拜六，他都会很开心地期待我们的到来，和我们分享他在在一周里发生过的一切。
有食物他总是会不吝啬地请我们吃，会害怕我们感觉到热而替我们开风扇。就是这些贴心的小举动，让我有一种被他当成孙女照顾的感觉吧！
即使知道自己行动不方便，不能和大家一起外出活动，他会耐心地呆在家里等候阿姨活动后回来一起用餐。
他教会了我很多人生的道理和我分享了很多自己的经验。他也是我刚到AWWA最先认识的长辈之一，所以对他和阿姨的故事与人都印象深刻。
现在的我，只能将这些美丽的回忆好好收藏在心里的某一个角落。
希望时间可以慢慢地让我在下一次想起他的时候不会哭吧！
虽然我不知道Uncle Eddy 会不会收到我的祝福，可是我希望他在世界的另一个角落可以过得很好！
我们在这里会很想念很想念他的！而且希望他可以放心，我会替你多多关心阿姨的！
最后，我一定不会忘了和他一起相处的时间的！

每个女生都会期待像偶像剧般的爱情。可是我知道这种事在现实生活中是少之又少的！
每一次在看偶像剧时，感触总是特别多。自己总是像个爱哭鬼似的，哭得眼睛又红又肿的。 只能说自己的泪腺太过发达了！
《败犬女王》，看着看着，让我不禁联想到这到底会不会是自己10年后，变成败犬的真实写照啊？:X

exams have all come to an end. and it's time to take a breather before PA starts on monday. sigh~

drank koi today but my craving is not really satisfied! HAHA! after that went to sing ktv plus had supper at blk 85! it just feels great without having the need to rush home to study and bury my head in books. LIBERATION AT LAST!

time for emo songs again. :D