everything will be fine after some sleep.
goodnight world.
:)

everyday is a good start.
jiayou!

came across this post on tumblr.
felt that it was quite a meaningful post and thought i could share with you guys:)

the impact of technology on human relationships
http://lifeswonders.tumblr.com/post/3164887431/johngeremy-i-was-shooting-a-scene-in-my-new

“This is me, and I’m interested in you enough to show you my flaws with the hope that you may embrace me for all that I am but, more importantly, all that I am not.”
— Ashton Kutcher

but are there things that you can't just simply show everyone?
perhaps. especially your vulnerabilities.

learning to accept.
learning to let go.
i am tired of coping with things/issues that are beyond my control.
since i can't change it, i should gladly accept it.
no point in holding back.
the only constant is change.
am i just dumb, or should i say i am too stubborn to listen.
elaine ahhhhh...

i miss the old me.

太多的思绪，让我觉得自己相似被困在漩涡的舟，迷失了方向，一直不停的绕圈圈。
好多的问号，让一直在寻找答案的我，都厌倦，都累了。
疲惫的身躯，好想休息哦。
开朗，坚强是必须。
只是心好痛，好痛。

come on little brain.
u need to work a little.
i have got a quiz tmr.
i need to do my consol for tmr.
why can't you listen for once?

the missing just gets harder each day.

a day at home doing my consol.
seeing lots and lots of stars still.
but eventually i will conquer it:)

"Worrying won't stop the bad stuff from happening, it just keeps you from enjoying the good."
so perhaps i should just learn to worry less.
easier said than done, isn't it?:)

looking forward to session tmr.
people who makes me feel at ease.
and a place where i can be myself.
no roles, nor responsibilities to ponder over.
the joy of volunteering.
the reason for joining wsc right from the start.
perhaps i needed this long time ago.

here's something i saw on my friend's status.
makes lots of sense especially after what had happened yesterday.
"We all wear masks. Everyone, everyday. Sometimes we wear them so much that we forget who we really are. Sometimes, if we’re lucky, someone comes along and shows us who we really want to be; who we should be."
the complex world which i am still learning to adapt, to comprehend.
no doubt there are bound to be times that i will get tired and lose faith in life.
but i am glad i have friends, family and my daidai alongside with me.
to constantly remind me to stay true to myself.
but here's what i really feel.
you never know what others have up their sleeves.
they might disapprove or try to hurt you in all sorts of way.
i don't mind getting hurt.
but someday i hope they can start to believe in the good of people.
因为我始终相信人类都是善良的。
只不过往往是周遭的人，事，物让我们迷失了方向，忘记了自我。
可是到最后，我们还是会找回来的，不是吗？:)

Everything will be alright. You just have to accept how things gonna turn out to be eventually. It's ok gal! Just flood my mind with accounting and go to sleep. Study study study.

i don't think you will ever see this post.
but still, you remind me of myself.
listening to you as you reiterate your life story,
i can't help but teared.
i see my reflection in you.
since young, time has always been spent on my school commitments and community projects.
little time was available for myself nor my loved ones.
taking up the current position was for the same reason - 义气.
and in the end, i suffered from this impulsive decision of mine.
i don't want to see a second me walking onto this path which wasn't destined to be suitable for me right from the start.
i feel for you and that's why i can't help but cried.
and it's because of all these, i am not going to convince you anymore.
because you deserve to pursue your way of life and i respect your choice.

1 down.
and i can't help but to think that eventually, you will rise to take up one of the 3 positions available.
i want to be selfish, but i realised i can't.
after graduation and upon entering the audit industry, i know you will eventually get tired of waiting for me to knock off or to reach home.
knowing that you have the capability to do something for the club, i realise i don't have the right to influence your decision.
but my fear is; what if we can't even meet up once every fornight after you step up and i start working?
i can't help but fear when this day will arrive.
selfishness?
when can i ever learn to do that:(
i hate myself.
i hate my commitments.
how i wish 2012 really comes true.