finally went down to the dreaded clinic today:(
took a nap and now it's time to start the engines again.
it's all my fault.
stupid me.

"I shot for the sky
I'm stuck on the ground
so why do I try
I know I'm gonna fall down
I thought I could fly
so why did I drown
I'll never know why it's coming down down down"

one more day:(
take care my friends.

i feel helpless because for the first time i feel at lost for words to say to u.
perhaps i should just leave u alone.
coz i am afraid i am adding to ur burden.

"And all the questions
I’ve been asking in my head
Like are you the one should I really trust
Crystal clear it becomes"

a sweet and nice song.
sometimes it takes a few relationships to realise who is the right type of guy for you.
perhaps i am just thinking a little too much.
perhaps u just aint the right puzzle piece i am trying to find.
so i guess it's time to move on, gal?
it's hard but i should try.

sent my two other friends off for exchange today:( *sigh*
people around me are leaving one by one.
and sometimes i cant help but feel empty inside.
perhaps a little breather will remedy my current situation.
a day without my friends.
a day without my family.
a day without all communication means.
a day with me, myself and i.

and my cough is driving me nuts.
i think i will hate talking, eating and opening my mouth at this rate.
somehow or another, this cough is making me feel like a tb patient coz i am literally coughing my lungs out:(
my persistent cough is making me miserable.

sooo many activities everyday coupled with the many deadlines to be met,
i guess the only way to complete everything is at the expense of my sleep.
when i thought i can start clearing my sleep debts, and now here i am accumulating them again.

有时候我会不经意停下脚步来，问一问自己为什么会把自己搞得那么忙碌？这难道就是大学生涯吗？
为什么就不能学会多疼一疼自己，让自己多休息一点呢？
因为太习惯照顾别人，我常常会忽略自己有时也需要被照顾。
因为太习惯坚强，所以不会让你们发现自己心里其实有多软弱。
我笑过，也哭过。双重个性或许就是自己最棒的武装吧！
我的世界只因为我关心，我爱的人转动，因为把你们看得比我自己还重要，我不介意把自己累坏。
这就是我，一个傻傻的我。

first lesson today. i hope i will make a good teacher. at least i will try my best to become one:) JIAYOU gal!

there's alot to life, and i admit i am still learning the ropes to it.
it takes half a minute to finish writing this simple word but we take years to truly understand the meaning behind it.
and that's the way of life - we learn as we age.

had a wonderful dimsum breakfast with my family this morning to celebrate my daddy's birthday!
though it wasn't some big, extravagant celebration, but i believe daddy's happy enuff.
gonna buy him his fav cake on tuesday!
其实幸福也可以很简单:)

went to clementi to help mama clean her room again.
and this time, we managed to clear around 70% of the stuff.
had dinner at the coffee shop and stayed to watch the replay of worldcup finals.
and it kinda change my perception of watching soccer.
at least it didnt turn out to be that boring as i thought it would be.
i guess the company do matters! :)

it's time to catch up on sleep.
i dun want to fall sick at this time:(
stupid cough and sorethroat shoo shoo shoo~~~

internship is finally over.
10 weeks of waking up at 6.30am every morning is enough to tire me out.
and now, it's time for some sleep and quality time with my family and friends:)
11days to play.

loves the feeling of being freed from work commitments.
loves the feeling of doing the things i enjoy.
loves the time out with friends who i really care.

2 birthday cakes and fries for dinner can really be 'fatal' to throat!
nevertheless, i still enjoyed today!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, FRIEND! :D

counting down to the last 2 days.
didnt expect the last week to be soooooo busy.
with insufficient sleep and lots of stuff to complete, my brain doesn't have much time to wander off and emo on its own.
and i am glad i am busy sometimes.
at least each day passes reasonably faster. :)
i will be fine just that...

4 more days of internship and after which I will be freed from what we call REALITY.
things were much simpler back then. sounds familiar?
i miss the times when human relationships were much simpler.
no facade only true feelings of care and concern.
i dun like being with ppl i am not comfortable with. that's why i chose to remain silent when i am with u ppl.
and i really hate to be forcing out a smile to pretend that i am ok when i am not.
and i having second thoughts as to whether i shld attend thurs outing.

Have you ever wondered what the real essence of the saying "A Friend in Need is a Friend Indeed" is? People talk about the true value of friendship actually without knowing what it stands for. True friendship is the one, in which the individuals do not have to maintain formalities with each other. Sharing true friendship is the situation, when the person you are talking about is counted as one among your family members, when the relation you share with him/her reaches a stage that even if you don't correspond for sometime, your friendship remains unscathed. Best friends need not meet up often to make sure that the friendship remains constant.

True friends are not opportunists. They don't help, because they have something to gain out of it. True friendship is marked by selflessness. Best friends support even each other, even if the whole world opposes them. It is not easy getting true friends for the lifetime. If you have even one true friend, consider yourself blessed. Remember, all best friends are friends, but not all friends can be best friends. In this world of cynics and back stabbers, there are still some people who are worth being friends with. They have to be recognized and respected for being best friends, for the lifetime.
(http://festivals.iloveindia.com/friendship-day/true-friendship.html)

have u found ur best friends yet? :)

i am terribly worn out.
slept at 1am yesterday and woken up by my mum for breakfast at 7am.
and we went to eat ban mian tgt!
although i was feeling really tired, eating bf with my family kinda made me forget the weariness i felt. after internship, i am going to spend more time with my family. *promise* :)
after that, went back to sleep when i reached home.
ended up sleeping from 11am to 3pm without hearing my alarm at 2pm.
i guess my body knows when to 'bypass' the alarm to let me get more rest.
HAH! me and my rubbish theory again.

last 5 days of internship.
elaine's gonna survive thru it. and if i can, i believe you will too:)
another exciting week ahead. chase away all those monday blues!

tiring but enjoyable day spent with my dearest gang of volunteers!
though i had to wake up at 6am for syog training.
the time spent with chan, mich, lover and lao chun was definitely enjoyable.
had a great laugh with this bunch of friends.
coz i realised lao chun's 笑点 is sooo low. hahah:D
and not forgetting the cute merly!:D

syog training ended early today so we went over for sk's bdae surprise mission:)
glad that sk was stunned by our surprise! 任务成功! *claps claps*
dinner was at xin wang but this time at yishun.
had fun with the elders people as usual!
你们让我可以很自在，很安心地做我自己。
那个傻傻的我。:)

and i think my gastric pain is back, especially with me feeling really terrible after meals these days:(
i guess all this is simply due to my irregular eating hours these few weeks.
stupid me who doesnt know how to take care of myself!





i hope u will take good care of urself.
dun make me worry for u ya?
will miss u de:)

7 more days:(

counting down.

on the other hand, my mum went ahead to accept a tuition assignment for her friend's son.
TADAH! there goes my weekends:(
soo many activities this week. i wanna watch "eclipse" and "despicable me"!

looking back at what i told hq on msn, i find it rather amusing. HAHAH!
i said i dun mind taking the roller coasters or the most thrilling ride in the amusement park but spare me from the haunted house coz i hate that.
i am weird! :S

there are tonnes of stuff pending for me to get started and completed. :(
it's hard to find the drive to get started especially after a day of work.
but me being me, will aim to start and complete at least one of my tasks tmr!

唐禹哲-灰色河堤


这是我们最后的关系吗？
一切就像夏天的烟火绽放以后，就在瞬间回到平静。
到现在, 我还是选择...

the last 9 days of my internship.
mixed feelings. :S

in the progress of adding on more wishes to my wish-list.
can u help me fulfil them?

a day well-spent with my 3 mamas.
had fun clearing up the room for my dearest mama.
although it's super messy before we came, there was a great sense of satisfaction after today's spring-cleaning. :) 3 cheers to xiaowu family! *claps*

although we dun really get to meet up that often, i am really greatful i met u all in my life.
the feeling of u always being there when i needed u, really made me wanna treasure u even more.
朋友和情人的成分虽不同，但是我可以很清楚地告诉你们，现在我心目中朋友更定是#1!
thanks for always being there. :D *muacks*

to my busy grandpa, please take good care of urself. please try to cheer up coz u are kinda worrying me. :(

成全并不代表放弃，是自己对真爱的坚持。
可是‘放弃’这两个字说起来容易，做起来却好难好难哦!
或许时间会冲淡一切，或许一切原本就应该顺其自然些。
两条平行线，原本就不应该有任何的交际:)

我越了解你 越靠近你 越犹豫。

woohoo!!! it's finally over!
had a fun time with my fellow interns today, despite the numerous technical/logistics/hr problems, we managed to pull it through and put up a great performance! *claps claps claps*
despite the weariness, it was all worth it!
time for my eyes and legs to rest from the contacts and heels.
and suddenly i am craving for KOI! :P

i am tired especially with the lack of sleep every night:(
and today i just sent another friend off to toronta, a country which has a 12hr time lapse from spore.
sooo many people are flying off, and i am tempted to leave spore for hols/exchange.
i wanna a breakaway from life!

anyway, i really can't wait for tmr to end. afterwhich i will be much free on sat without dance training and more time with the elderly! *sigh sigh sigh* so many of my weekends have been burnt coz of dance practices:(

but somehow or another i am not really looking forward to tmr's party probably becoz of the venue? i know i am contradicting myself, pardon me for that ya? i am tiredddd.
perhaps i just dun really like clubbing places and to be drinking with a bunch of not very close friends. and the worst has to be that i can't drink!
and the interns are intending to club till 2am to watch soccer and then breakfast! sooo crazy can?! i think my parents will get super worried if i don't come home the whole night. and secondly, i dun think my body can take it :S

how how how!?!?!?!?