still remember i told u that i would post the answer to your question on my blog?
so now here it is.

to be frank, i felt a little surprised and upset when you said you would consider whether to take up the position.
because i never knew that you might have a slight interest in it at all.
or probably because i didn't ask for your opinion.
i thought this matter wouldn't be as mind-boggling as the other issues i have been emo-ing over the past few days.
but ever since you raised it up again this morning, it's been bothering me the whole day because i know there's a possibility of you taking it up since u said u would consider.

u asked if i know how life would be liked as an auditor .
i replied, 'auditor = no life for the next 3 years' due to the nature of our job during peak periods.
which was why i worry that my answer, would lead you into making your decision of taking up this extra commitment to busy yourself up for the next acad year:(

i seriously don't know what i should advise you, dear.
because i am lost too...
i have been thinking and rethinking for the whole of today.
as your gf or as your predecessor.
different roles. different concerns. different stands.
how can i be objective when i know my heart just doesn't want to.
can i just follow my heart and be selfish for once?
*sighs* i guess it's just easier said than done:(


probably a little too much...