i don't think you will ever see this post.
but still, you remind me of myself.
listening to you as you reiterate your life story,
i can't help but teared.
i see my reflection in you.
since young, time has always been spent on my school commitments and community projects.
little time was available for myself nor my loved ones.
taking up the current position was for the same reason - 义气.
and in the end, i suffered from this impulsive decision of mine.
i don't want to see a second me walking onto this path which wasn't destined to be suitable for me right from the start.
i feel for you and that's why i can't help but cried.
and it's because of all these, i am not going to convince you anymore.
because you deserve to pursue your way of life and i respect your choice.

1 down.
and i can't help but to think that eventually, you will rise to take up one of the 3 positions available.
i want to be selfish, but i realised i can't.
after graduation and upon entering the audit industry, i know you will eventually get tired of waiting for me to knock off or to reach home.
knowing that you have the capability to do something for the club, i realise i don't have the right to influence your decision.
but my fear is; what if we can't even meet up once every fornight after you step up and i start working?
i can't help but fear when this day will arrive.
selfishness?
when can i ever learn to do that:(
i hate myself.
i hate my commitments.
how i wish 2012 really comes true.