i am starting to experience for myself the consequences of late nights and the lack of sleeps for the past few years ever since jc.
i know my body is in pretty bad shape now.
esp when you have been sick for the past 3 weeks or so.
although i would very much want to recover, i just don't seem to have the chance to do so.

remember me telling you that i need one year to sleep and pay for my sleep debts?
i am serious.
how i wish i could be like sleeping beauty and sleep for years, decades and perhaps centuries.
wishful thinking on my part.
but sometimes is the thought of all these nonsensical stuff that keeps me going. crazy gal i would say.
the different personalities i display.
the different images i try to portray.
they are all tiring me out.
the feeling of standing them being an empty shell is scary.
especially when your brain refuses to think or functon anymore.

i am starting to learn how to be more irresponsible now.
and i hope it helps a little.
i am sick of all these responsibilities, work and myself.
:(