screwed up my recess week.
with so many quizzes and wsc related emails/work.
i feel totally STRESSED UP!

many people are asking me, "So how's your final sem?"
i would reply, "Okay lor. Busy as usual."
but i know it's way more stressful than the past few sems.
simply because i still have expectations for myself.
even with a secured job offer. i can choose to slack and enjoy this last few months left.
but i want to give it all out for my last semester.
which was why i did my tuts and completed most of my readings.
i know results ain't proportionate to effort. esp since the past few sems i had.
but still, i want to try.
which was why i insisted on not giving up and here i am.
the state of STRESS as a result of SELF-EXPECTATION.
do i really expect too much that is really out of my capability?
am i really being too harsh on myself?

for once. can you let me see that effort do yield results?
can you let me believe in this all over again?

morale booster.
i guess i need it most now.